I do this thing that I know I shouldn't do, however, I am unable to stop. I guess it's just the way I'm made up. Here's the thing I do - I believe that people are generally good. That they are usually telling the truth and that they will not do to me what I would not do to them. I have been proven wrong God knows how many times, yet I continue to think this way. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not stupid. I just expect the best of others. Now, when I find out they are not what I thought I have no problem dealing with the facts. But - I just hate that I go into situations giving people the benefit of the doubt. It seems that people who are suspicious and jaded have it a lot easier. See, even now instead of thinking of those people as reasonable and level headed, I think of them as suspicious and jaded. I need to get to a middle ground. Glean from both sides if you will. I'd like to not take people at their word so easily. This does not only relate to relationships with the opposite sex. I wish I could read other blogs and think *some of that shit ain't true, he is exaggerating or she ain't that damn hard - it's easy to type it, walk it - not so easy* See what I write, say and live is just me. I don't clean it up. I don't exaggerate it or water it down, so I think others are doing the same. This leads to a great deal of disappointment.
I've been thinking about this for a few days and I just needed to put it out there.