Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Just Kill Me And Get It Over With!!
I want to quit my job, quit school, drop out of society and live in a cave. That's how I'm feeling this morning. I'm so sleepy I could puke. The power went out last night which means the C-Pap was out of commission, which means my brain will be out of commission for the ENTIRE day. The alarm clock did not go off because of the power outage contributing to my already pathological tardiness to work. I'm forced to park in a lot a few miles from work, and rely upon an unreliable shuttle bus to pick me up. After I wait twenty minutes to be picked up, and dropped off at work, I go over to the security office to turn in my old parking hangtag and get a new one. (I received an email informing me we must come into the security office and exchange our tags.) So, I walk across the street, through the "not slowing down, we don't give a damn if this is a hospital and we see you crossing at the cross walk" traffic and to the "Security Office". There are two people busy eating donuts and drinking coffee and they can't be bothered with helping me because their conversation is very important. A sale at Kohls department store no less! Okay, here's a fresh faced young man who appears to be 14 years old dressed in a security officers uniform. I explain my need for a new hangtag so that I can continue to park in Egypt, and wait for a shuttle until I'm completely late and want to kill the driver, the passengers and myself. He asks, "Do you know your license plate number?" The question in and of itself is harmless, except that if he asked this I must need same to get tag - and I do not know it. Yes I should know it but I do not. So that was the last straw.
At every turn lately I have been bombarded with just the most vile fuckery other shit to break my spirit. The list is to extensive to burden you with . So I will just say this. I'm looking for a cave to dwell in. A cave only big enough for me. Not too cold and not to hot. One in which I can live naked in. I have not figured out what I will do for food yet.
If you know of such a cave let me know, but please hurry, I can't take much more.